Agoraphobia in the time of COVID19

Today, the world outside was vibrant. Emerald green and daffodil yellow, a chaotic spray of pink cherry blossoms amongst crimson tulips. Spring has erupted in chartreuse moss and warm sunshine, and yet it feels like the sun is gone. I struggled with this feeling all day. A long-absent weight eased onto me, and I couldn't... Continue Reading →

the black-eyed woman

It's September of 2019, and I'm still revising a draft I started almost a year ago. A lot happens in the space of one year. So many things have changed. I feel like I don't contain the same cells. Like someone rewrote my code. Maybe they did. I'm not the same person I was a... Continue Reading →

raise the dead

Mothers are not meant to be remade. This was a truth known since childhood. No simulacrum, no effigy could take the place of the spark that died in late September. I’d seen her dead. I’d touched her lifeless body. That cool, rigid cheek would never dimple from a smile. And she would never rise from... Continue Reading →

victory versus failure

I need to compose a monthly Thing for the official blog, but in all honesty, I’m stumped. So here I go. On February 23, I set out for a life on the road. A seriously, seriously hard life I definitely wasn’t prepared for, but I wanted it all the same. I wanted to know if... Continue Reading →

Seven months.

About to be eight, if we're really keeping count, but at this point, what's the difference? Why haven't I posted in half a year's time? Let's throw out some guesses. working on new projects crappy mental health crappy health in general OCD That last one. What the hell is that? is something I asked roughly... Continue Reading →

Stigma

Many months have passed since the last blog post. I usually try to find something to say at least once a month, but May, June, and July passed in silence. What is there to say on a public platform when it's all intensely personal? There are certain things that are acceptable to talk about as... Continue Reading →

On the Importance of Shouting Into the Void

While there are few commonalities the internet of 1999 shares with the internet of today, one thing hasn't changed. Here is its most potent magic: with the push of a button, you can be heard. Any time, anywhere, from your phone, computer, or tablet, you can always shout into the void. Today's internet is billions... Continue Reading →

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